tick, tock, tick, tock

COUNTDOWN: 20 DAYS.

I remember the days when I had to scroll through months and months on my phone to find the date I was leaving for New York... now I'm AT that month. And a mere three weeks from tomorrow I will be at my first day on the job at Saks! I have never been so excited yet so scared for something all at the same time. I didn't even feel this apprehensive when I was going away to college (though... college was 20 minutes away from my house, so... this is much different).

There is sooo much I have to do before I leave. I don't even want to begin to think about packing. I have to move completely out of my room in my apartment (which has accumlated TWO YEARS worth of crap) and into my room at my parent's house. I have to buy business professional clothes. Because I am working in corporate I have to dress like a business woman, what? really? who would have known?! I don't even own a pair of dress pants. Or a blazer. Shooooooot. I have a feeling my personal style is about to go through a total transformation this summer. Which I am more than ready for. Bring on the DVF blouses and Theory dresses. I'm sick of my laid-back college girl look anyways.

I'm also getting incredibly sad (almost depressed) about leaving my family and friends. Madison is my comfort zone, born and raised here. I've also never gone more than a week without seeing my parents (I know right, how old am I, 5?) so even though I'm twenty I'm getting really nervous about not being able to meet my mom every week for starbucks and then stock up on groceries. And don't even get me started on being away from my boyfriend for so long :( I thought being away on a 10-day vacation last summer was a long time.... here comes 10 weeks....

Ahhh well. I gotta get back to studying. I have TWO finals today and then I'm 3/4 done with my exams week! So for now I'm going to try and focus on worrying about exams and push New York to the back of my mind... ha, yeah like that will happen.

-little s